It’s amazing what time can do. Time can heal an old wound, time can help someone find their way home, time can be a way out but for me time helped me realize what’s real.
Thursday I spent the day trying to fix things with Garth. That meant I didn’t text him or talk to him in any way. It was exceptionally hard because we had spent the past month talking everyday. Yeah, there were days we didn’t text but we saw each other, but this is something I chose to do. But it was harder than I thought it was going to be not because I couldn’t do it but because all I wanted to do was talk to him. I would look at my phone and just wonder if this was going to work.
It took me until about 4 o’clock on Friday to realize I couldn’t wait anymore and I just needed to take a chance on £0¥€ and see if this could be real. I had so many people telling me what to do that I couldn’t think for myself. They all thought they knew what was best for me, thought they were helping. But the thing is they weren’t helping. I mean maybe they were but telling me to not text someone only makes menwant to text them more and makes me think that I screwed up worse than I had.
So I couldn’t stand it anymore, I followed my gut and I grabbed my phone and text Garth. And you know what I’m so glad I did because the end result was better than I could have ever imagined.
I took a chance. I took that risk. I’m glad I did. Things are so different with Garth. I don’t hesitate about anything I want to say. I just go for it. Yeah, I might come off as pushy or forward but it seems to have paid off so far. No regrets yet.
£0¥€ can’t be this easy. Maybe the hard part isn’t finding love it’s learning to keep it and not screw it up.
Stay tuned…
