Just Me...

Life can be pretty crazy.

From falling for a really great guy to being completely free and not having to worry about anyone but me, myself and I.

It’s one of the greatest feelings in the world. Finally putting myself first.

But I still have that feeling that something is there. I don’t think anything is going to happen right now or maybe a year from now but deep down I have a feeling that Prince Chamring was right in front of me.

Yeah, it was crappy of him to play me and then end up courting some other girl and now they are in a relationship but what happens when that all falls apart? What happens when he realizes that he really does love me?

I know it’s not over. I know there is some sort of future there. Maybe it’s hidden right now but eventually something will happen.

I’m being honest and this is what I really feel.

I honestly feel that he loves me. I feel that if I gave up and just quit trying I would have given up an opportunity to truly be happy.

Nothing is going to make me more happy than finding one man that will love me for everything that I am. From the burping and farting to the football loving girl I am. One man who can look me in the eyes and love me for me and see me for who I am not who ever he wants or thinks I can be.

In the next ten years here what I want to happen:

I want to get my MBA in General Business
I want to own Smoothie King by the time I am 25
I want to apply for a coaching job at Nac High
I want to continue to coach soccer, whether I get paid or not
I want to start a family

I have goals in my life. Someone great is going to come along a fit right into my goals. Whether it be a friend or someone I meet coaching or just here in Nacogdoches; someday he will fit in and someday he will come.

I’m happy right now, not having to worry about another person but myself and my work. I don’t even envy those who are about to get married or those in realationships because right now taking care of myself is my number one priority.

Sometimes yes, I wish THE ONE would just come sweep me off my feet and be there when ever I needed someone to snuggle with or someone to just talk to whenever I needed someone to talk to would be nice but right now that’s not in my timeline.

I still have hope that Prince Charming is out there. Yeah, I think Garth will one day realize how he feels about me and he’ll come around but right now all I have is time and time is all I got :)