Hope
Hope keeps me strong through everything. Through every struggle and every wrong decision there I have hope that it will all work out in the end.
I’ve always been told “you can’t do this” or “you can’t do that” and you know what I’m sick of being told what NOT to do. I want to do something for me. I did something for me. I told him how I felt. Not all of how I felt but I at least told him that I like him.
Those feelings are never going to change. I still get the butterflies going into work almost a year after meeting him. Yes, I know being the manager and him being “my employee” is a big deal and more than likely not acceptable, but you know I’m done with rules! I’m done giving into “THE MAN” and the stupid rule book.
I live on the hope that one day it will just be me and him. I live on the hope that sooner than later I’ll be able to kiss him the way I dream, or hold his hand just because. I live on the hope that one day he’ll lean over and whisper those 3 little words.
Yes, I am falling for him.. and you know what, that’s okay. I deserve to fall for someone who I know will catch me. I deserve to believe with all my heart that he is that one person I’ve been looking for.
I was not expecting to be where I am today. I was expecting to still be friends with certain people and still going for the guy who never wanted me. I never expected to be able to open my heart to some stranger that I work with. I wasn’t expecting to fall into the arms of a guy who would turn my world around.
It’s unexplainable, the feelings I have for him. It’s uncertain: what is going to happen. But through it all I have hope. I can only hope that he hopes too.
Time & Hope: everything I am giving life right now…
